I've never ever felt more worst about myself like now. What exactly am I doing? I myself really do not have the answer. I was a good student..not the perfect role model kind, just that I did all I need to as a student..I'm accountable at least to myself. I used to think that way.. But not anymore. Time waits for no one.. True enough..time has slipped through my fingers so seamlessly. I have simply wasted too much time !!!

I got back one of my prelim paper. I failed. I guess that goes to e rest of e papers as well . Ha! I expected this result but still I felt disheartened when I see it. I told myself well... I didn't put in effort so it's fair that I seap what I sowed .

The biggest problem now is that I'm not even putting in the slightest effort to be accountable to myself. I felt that I had put in much more effort for the prelims than for e finals. If you ask me, I actually do feel the urgency of this but my mind and body is not taking any action. But why?! I don't know!!

18 days left till the end of the month not the exam .. Only 4.5 days per module.. In fact lesser, with 9 days of revision classes in between. Keeping my fingers crossed I need to finish my first round of studies by then.

Please give me the determination to finish what I need to! Anyone!! I'm desperately looking for the starting line.. I want to see the finishing line too....

toking crap at 12:49 AM | Comment

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